In a two room apartment on the twelfth floor a man sits on the floor, smoking, popping pills and trying to figure out how he will get the money for booze not just for today, but tomorrow as well. The first is a week away, he's been running on empty for days. He considers panhandling, and looks at the cardboard box that holds his old records, but doesn't have a marker to make the sign. His bottle of vodka is nearly empty, only three packs of smokes left in his carton and nothing in his wallet.

Hours creep by, the TV drones on but he isn't watching, only three channels and nothing on. He's too depressed to listen to his music, that just brings him down, reminds him of the days when he was somebody.

He was a roofer, worked hard by day, drank hard by night, he had friends, or drinking buddies anyway, and some women now and then. His daughter is in Florida, doesn't hear from her much, but that's okay, as time went on and he saw and thought of her less and less it didn't hurt as much. Didn't hurt at all once he had a few, but therein lies the problem;Thanksgiving is tomorrow and he's got nothing.

Time drags by, the solution to his problem remains elusive. He's alone, truly alone, a situation of his own making. Most days it's okay, but today the loneliness is unbearable. He begins to feel sick. Then his chest starts to hurt, a broken heart perhaps, more likely a phantom symptom brought on by self-loathing and an overwhelming desire for some human contact. He pulls some old jeans over his dirty underwear, throws a Patriots Sweatshirt over his dirty hair and scrounges up a quarter, forgetting that he doesn't need it, and leaves his prison and walks to the pay phone in the lobby and calls 911.

Then he shuffles back to his apartment and waits for somebody to show up, and take his pain away.


We create our happiness , or misery. Embrace those closest to you, nurture difficult relationships and let go of useless resentments. All we have is each other, and in the end, each other is all we need.

Happy Thanksgiving.


  • Amazingly poignant post. You are such a wise man Michael. Yes, all we have is each other, so many seem to spoil their relationships over such small matters when all is needed is a sorry or a hug. All very best wishes to you and your family for Thanksgiving and wishing you a good year ahead.

  • Jeff R. says:

    Thanks, Mike

  • Pat Blackman'Grandma Muggle says:

    Through all kinds of difficulties, Rick and I have managed to have a good life together, Good kids and grandkids and special friends like you.   It's also great to know that, once in a while, someone you gave a helping hand to long ago made it!   A child you were "Grandma Muggle" to in years gone by rushes up to you and gives you a hug.  Of course, he is now a college student!  Time flys,  Of course there are sad and even bad times in life but they serve to make the happy and good times more profound.  So, on this Thanksgiving Day.  Thanks you to you MIchael for making my life more interesting and infinitely more fun!  Love, Pat.

  • Jean says:

    Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours, Michael.

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